Healing Through Recovery

April 17, 2018

recovery

I often wonder if I would ever be able to forgive my wife for her actions while she was actively drinking. I could not conceive ever trusting her again – not after the barrage of lies and deception that goes along with active alcoholism.

How could she do this to our family? To her children? To me !?

My wife was in and out of recovery programs with limited success. I would push, she would go – relapse. Repeat cycle. My wife finally hit bottom on our son's birthday – she was unconscious when I called the ambulance and was in the ICU for 3 days.

I had hit my bottom as well – and filed for divorce. I did not think I could have gotten the damage.

My wife entered an in-patient program, without my help, and left a new person – she had connected with her Higher Power and turned over her will and her life. She had finally come to believe that she was an alcoholic, no better no worse, an alcoholic.

It was during the early stages of my wife's recovery that I realized I needed help as well. I could not understand how my wife could be so happy – was not she aware of all the pain that had been caused? The damage to our relationship and our family? She was aware, but unlike me, she was able to turn her will and her life over to God.

As I saw my wife grow in recovery, my respect for her and support system grew as well. I started attending Al-anon November 25, 2005, and I was able to let go and turn my will and life over to my Higher Power.

The trust I never thought would come back returned. The pain I never thought would go away stayed.

Living in recovery, both of us working our own programs and letting go, has allowed our family to stay intact. For that I am grateful.

37 Comments

  • Vinit Agarwal April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    Linus are you the owner of the office or a worker up there

  • Vinit Agarwal April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    Linus are you the owner of the office or a worker up there

  • DWN 013 April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    It works! drops it

  • Finlay Mitchell April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    Opening a laptop up when it's still turns on is a stupid idea, and you took the battery out when it was sleeping!

  • Finlay Mitchell April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    Try it with a ThinkPad running Windows XP!

  • codeg_ April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    "Is it raining?"
    "Yes"
    "So let's f*k up a laptop and then fix it for literally no reason"

  • Shichi April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    i want linus asmr

  • Cyber Tech Tube April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    01:54 WTF windows 8 who uses it

  • Comical Spy April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    Just use a hair dryer instead of leaving it out to dry

  • Alex Oja April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    Linus i got this idea that if you get electronics wet you should actually rinse it with distilled water or some alcohol before drying, so you'll avoid any possibility of accumulated salts the water contained or set loose causing shorts. Thoughts?

  • Zheng wei Lee April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    You guys should review the t480 and then soak it

  • anghellic April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    I want ifixits new toolkits lets throw this outt in the rain and ask for repair help

  • anghellic April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    Dells never contacted us again 2018

  • Dee April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    I bought a DELL Laptop and it of course stopped working just after the warranty expired – DELL was the worse company in the world to deal with and totally lied about everything .. in the end took the thing apart myself only to discover how rubbish DELL's are built on the inside. For example the POWER button on my laptop was just a piece of plastic film, like a sweet wrapper almost which fell out upon opening the laptop. Instead of using a high quality microswitch they use a piece of junk for the power button. My advice is never buy a DELL Computer they are often HAND BUILT – not built by robots. So the quality of your laptop depends on what kind of mood the person in the factory was that day. If they were tired then your DELL PC might not last as long.

  • YARN-dere April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    Let's go and soak it! "Didn't you already soak it" BOOM!! Busted for soaking it when you said it was "Left in the rain".. hahaha

  • vodozhaba April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    Why have you bookmarked a website in Czech?

  • Solo Assassin45 April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    wow…

  • Yitzchak Notowitz April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    dint work

  • Ronit Satapathy April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    Please do a same test for dell 7567

  • RelativelyEdgar April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    "Maybe you were an accident."
    Damn Linus

  • Invincible YT April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    I love how I can’t afford anything you review on your channel! 😃😅

  • Alejandro Gutiérrez April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    I spilled a cup of tea on my XPS 15 a couple of hours ago. I turned it off, let it to dry for an hour or so and then tried to turn it on… it wouldn't. I took it home, removed the battery and put the whole thing in a bucket with rice, since that's the urban legend I'd heard. Then I found this video. Does anybody here have any advice? Do you think the laptop will survive? What else should I do?

  • Just Your Average Youtuber April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    why do people even dislike videos, like for every video theres dislikes like what makes you "dislike" the video? if you didn't like it you don't press like. but what part didn't you like? its a normal video. i just don't get it?

  • Familiaris April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    I'm watching on an XPS 13 and it's raining outside….

  • Alessandro D. Sánchez April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    Shhh nobody tell Dell

  • Taylor and Jackson April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    its flooding in my state

  • Omalley Gaming plus April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    Oh dam sonny he just got roasted

  • Sid'sGaming April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    Linus u rock with your next gen legendary stuff,keep it coming baby,keep it coming… -peace(big time fan)

  • BoredStuffs April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    "Maybe you were an accident"
    God.

  • Conner Dassen April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    You should've dried her immediately

  • David Echeverri April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    battery corrosion but it still works? damn ima send you all my wet hardware

  • Ming Yao Koh April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    Dell could have knew that you were gonna do that test…
    And they knew it

  • Khizer Iftikhar April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    4:00 maybe you were an accident xD HAHAHA shots fired

  • Robert April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    I bet Dell's engineering team for that product just sat watching this making bets on the outcome. Also now I'm sure Linus is a line item on their engineering robustness review process haha.

  • jamsgamesnl April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    4:00 lololol

  • brando12343 April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    There isn’t conducive minerals in rainwater that’s why it and the xps 12 survived

  • Twml April 17, 2018 at 12:59 am

    I spilled over a cup of water on one of my laptops one time by accident. it wasn't on and it took the full cup of water to the insides. I have never taken a laptop apart so fast. 5 minutes and it was gutted. most water dried up then all parts into containers of rice.

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